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Friday, February 27th, 2009
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So. This whole week has sucked ass. Starting last saturday I had MAJOR issues with a tooth. So after the weekend passed I decided, no it's only getting worse. Went to the dentist on tuesday and got an X-Ray. The guy said, "Well your root canal has failed, we'll need to preform another one, if we can, it also is very very infected, in fact as you can tell it's in your jaw now." so he sent me to another dentist, all the while I'm thinking, great I'm gonna panic if anything has to get done. So at the new guy he takes an x-ray and says, "Sorry man, I can't save your tooth, it's too infected, whoever gave you that root canal sucks. You need to loose it." So...He sent me to anoter guy and we set up a date to have the tooth pulled, that was today.
I decided to go under, but a day before I started freaking out because I have never had general Anesthesia. I get there today, freaking out, but they were really nice and calm. Took about 10 minutes to get me to relax, and about 10 more minutes for the dentist to say, "I can't give you an IV your vains are impenitrable, (something I've brought up, my body doesn't like to bleed.)" Apparently this is a first for him in his long career. Anyway, I was releived, and stressed now I had to be awake. But they introduced me to something amazing. Nitrous Oxide. That shit is awesome, and totally took away my anxiety. Pulled the tooth in like 1 minute, and it was all done. No pain, and I feel so much better. Nurses said I was having fun, dancing to Scissor Sisters in my dentist chair. I remember it all, and it just felt good. To not be anxious. I miss my tooth, but hey, I get to yell at the other dentist who fucked up my root canal and left a small piece of his instrument in my gum.
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Wednesday, December 31st, 2008
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The earth is slowing down guys! Theoretically when a object that orbits a gravitational force slows it gets pulled in. We'za all gonna die!
Midnight orgy for all.
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Tuesday, December 16th, 2008
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I'm really into Ska still, it is really good music.
Anyway, nothing really to update, just bored. Classes are over, I got an A in Small Business Management, and a high B in Anatomy of a Business plan. But I'm pretty sure I failed Asian civilizations, and maybe just barley passed Music. I got too into my business classes I didn't really do anything for the other two, but I'm not wasting the 60 bucks I spent on my Asian book, and the 120 bucks on music. So I'm taking them again.
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Monday, December 8th, 2008
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God I'm so bored with my life, I want to do something. But getting a store started takes time, I've found 8 potential investors, and I only need 12 more, once that happens I'm ready to go, it's going to take about 2-3 more years of school anyway, so I have plenty of time. But I want my store now! I want to feel accomplished now! Grrr. Everyone is doing something, and I feel like I'm just rotting in my house.
Growl.
Nightwish's new singer is really good, I have their new (well new for me, old for everyone else) Cd and I love it, one of their best Cd's yet.
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Wednesday, December 3rd, 2008
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Thursday, November 27th, 2008
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Wednesday, November 26th, 2008
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Monday, November 24th, 2008
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This infuriates me! And we need to do something about it. Read this article!
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Saturday, November 22nd, 2008
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So as you all know life has not been the greatest time for me lately, in fact I don't think life has been great for most people I know. It's constantly up and down, with the ups being brief and wonderful, and downs being sudden and crappy. Of course there is the constant medium we all experience, which for most of us seems to be a bit below "happy" but not quite in the "suck" zone.
As usual, today I awoke and was just feeling crappy. I wasn't doing much, school has been dragging on me, and it looks liek I'm going to fail two of my classes, surprisingly not my business ones, but my history and music. Not because it was to hard, but because I just didn't stay on track and missed turning in assignments. Anyway, I was walking through ralphs with my dad when I was suddenly struck with a sense of...acceptance. A ephiphany one might say.
Life Sucks...What else is new? It's tough but there isn't much that can be done. Life really does suck, but why sit here and try and find out why it sucks, when you can just move on, keep trying, and just have fun living. The minute I thought about that it just....felt better. I texted chuck and he said he'd figured that out a while ago, I replied with it's amazing how happy and awesome you feel after you realize how much life just sucks. It's like struggling against a heavy water current, while you fight it you feel awful, but if you just go with it...it can be exciting. A huge burden was lifted from my shoulders. Why feel bad for myself when I can just live with it? Get over it and have fun. I'm hoping I can keep this attitude.
So anyway, I got into facebook today, mainly cause of the discussion about Elizbitch. I updated picutres and friend requested a bunch of people I went to school with. The whole thing kind of depressed me, I actually miss highschool it was fun for me. But at the same time, I'm content as I said earlier with my current life. After all, it's only been 20 years, and 19 of it was amazing, still got at least like 40 left. xD Lots of room for improvment.
Too much typing time to go back to watchign "Stargate Sg1"
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Friday, November 7th, 2008
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I just woke up chocking on acid. I freaking hate that. I always freak out, because I can't breathe. So I was like pulling on my light and blinds, and coughing. Feels like death, and taste like it too. And then for like and hour you can't breathe right, you're all weezy and shit....GAH I FUCKING HATE IT.
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Thursday, November 6th, 2008
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So I'm completely fine with Obama as president, always have been. I just didn't agree on some crucial things, but no matter what I think he will do wonders for this country, or I hope so. I can already see he is unified us to the world just be being elected. Finally it's no longer cool to hate americans. That being said this election was never about race for me. I never saw a black man running for president, just an American, and it would upset me when everyone, even blacks, focused on his color. I found it a bit racist. I wasn't shocked a black man ran for president, let alone won, I'd been expecting it for a while, and certanly knew it would happen in my life time. People our age just aren't racist anymore. We grew up surronded by people of all colors, so I don't see why it's such a big deal. I think we need to stop giving attention to such things, because there is only one kind of citizen in my book, an American one. I don't care for the minorities aid, we've moved passed it. All men are created equal.
That being said, I fear for Obama, the man is good and there are awful people out there that already want to do him harm. I don't want to loose this president, I'll hate this country, the world will hate this country. I pray nothing happens. Plus...Biden isn't the greatest guy. He got away with a hit and run.
As for the propositions, I'm disgusted. How can Prop 1, a funding to make a bullet train, pass and not prop 8! How can people care more about animals (I did too, but I draw the line between animals and humans) then the rights of human beings! And how did they get the concervative against gays, but allow prop 4 to fail. Lies thats how! The bullshit commercials for prop 8 and 4 anger me beyond belief!)
So fuck you california, you have 8 of the worlds most liberal cities in it, and you still fucking failed.....FUCK.
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Tuesday, October 28th, 2008
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I saw a bunch of people with "Yes on Prop 8" signs yesterday, I flipped them off as we drove by, one of them yelled at me. I smiled.
I'm tired of politics, this country is being torn down the middle by a broken system that is like none seen since the civil war. Something needs to be done before people start dying. There is so much hate. People chanting kill Obama, people hanging dolls of Palin or McCain....it's fucking awful..
Anyway, this will be short. Xanax is working. Still a little bummed though.
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Thursday, October 23rd, 2008
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So I got Xanax tonight. Nervous about taking it. I get so freaked out by pills that affect your brain. i keep saying to myself, it's only fixing something that's already wrong in my brain, but I get sooo worried about taking them.
Anyone here take Xanax before? If so, I need your thoughts on it.
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Tuesday, October 21st, 2008
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So I usually just come on here to see how my buddies are doing, rarely posting myself. To be honest I've been wanting to post for a while, but I just find no reason to. It's not that your opinions don't matter, they do, it's just my current issue is I hate bothering people.
You all know I have anxiety, but it's gotten way better in the past two years, I've been able to got 2 hours away from the house, and all that stuff. But then my life changed. My sister got a new job, which made her further from me, both my sisters moved, so stacey isn't living at home, and thus never here. I'm in college,and my some of my friend just don't have the time to hang out. It was like all the support beams that held my fragile life in place, were just taken away. My anxiety got worse, and worse, over the months. And I'm back at square one. I can't go far from the house, I can't be left alone. i get too anxious. And it's not for fear of dying, it fear of the panic attack.
And with this has come the depression of me not living my life, of me constantly bothering my family, ruining their fun and such. It hurts, I hate to be selfish but at the same time, when I panic I loose all rational thought, and it's only about me, me me me me me, like a fucking child.
Which is what this thing has turned me into, a two year old kid who can't be left alone. It's depressing.
I've been through it before, so I hope a bit that I can fight it again, but I can't help but see the chasm of defeat in front of me. It's annoying to be frank. I'm going to a phsychologist, hoping it will help, and will attempt to get medication, I'm at the point where I just need a booster to help me out.
I'm not sure why I posted this, I think I just needed to let it out. God, I really hate the directiont my life is going inl
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Monday, August 25th, 2008
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First day of school, just got my Asian Civilizations book, and am purchasing my Music course set today (130 fucking dollars!!!!) Two classes so far, a third starts Sep 22, and a fourth Mid Octoberish. Although all my classes are online, my music has a 45 minute online meeting every Thursday so that's cool.
Also I have my own room now.
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Thursday, August 21st, 2008
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Firefly mother fuckers. Greatest show ever.
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Tuesday, August 19th, 2008
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.I'm in college.
Taking four classes this semester, a total of 12 units. Half of which puts me half way to getting my Small business certificate, and a third away from getting a Eutrapenuers(Too lazy to correct the spelling) degree.
Classes are;
Principles of Small Business
Business plan for a small Business.
Music history and literature
Asian civilizations.
Next semester i'll be taking two more business classes and a few core. Then so on and so forth.
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Thursday, August 14th, 2008
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Past few months have been busy, I've had an on off battle with Anxiety, but I came off it stronger as usual. And I've been trying to get my shit together for school, and possibly a future job. That and my family had a mini-vacation to a casino, in which I drank for the first time in months since I had a really really bad hangover, I'll never drink Sake again.
I'm kind of bummed though, I've been so busy I never really hung out with many people over summer. A few dnd games here, and a few random bits of people stopping by. But for the most part I've been busy with my own stuff. So don't feel left out of I haven't done anything with ya'll. I did it to everyone.
Miss all of you, we should do something soon. ^_^
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Wednesday, July 30th, 2008
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EARTHQUAKE BITCHES!!! WE'ZE ALL GONNA DIEZ!!!!!!!11!
Nah, but really, was that not fun kids? Thing woke me up, the ground was rolling and then my book shelf started to shake. So I jumped out of bend in my boxer, and went to the open window, (The one that just ends right above my waiste, which is good cause people would have seen my dangly parts.) Anyway, by the time I was fully awake it was over and everyone was outside the house. Quickly put pants on and headed out. Tried calling some people, but well everyone and their dog was TRYING to call someone, so no luck there.
Anyway, it's all over, and it was allot of fun. Apparently there have been several after shocks, a total some of (last I heard which was like hours ago) 60+. Understand of course we have minor earthquakes daily. Southern Califonia experiences 10,000+ earth quakes a year. Yeah I just found that out. That is allot. Most of which are in 1.0 area.
Anyway, to sum up, Earthquake, rude awakening, dangly parts, crap phone, and funny day.
Later guys.
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That Green Death Flavor is awesome, taste like Black Licorice.
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This one is great.
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